Musician TNS has opened up about industry gatekeepers and his beef with Shimza. Image via @tns_music/Instagram

‘Prayers keep me alive’: TNS explains his concerning suicide post

Producer and singer TNS has opened up about his worrying suicide post that went viral while he was teasing a new song.


Musician TNS has opened up about industry gatekeepers and his beef with Shimza. Image via @tns_music/Instagram

South Africa has been mourning the untimely passing of rapper Rikhado “Riky Rick” Makhado who is alleged to have committed suicide on 23 February in his Johannesburg home. The impact of social media on the mental health of public figures has become a hot topic. So when singer, DJ and producer Nkazimulo “TNS” Ngema this week hinted at “taking his own life”, fans reacted with concern.

The 22-year-old Umona hitmaker however has taken the time to expand on his cryptic post which appeared on Facebook on Monday 28 February.

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In an interview with TshisaLIVE, TNS shared that he has not had it easy in life. The producer says that if it wasn’t for prayer, he probably would not have made it.

“As people we are not the same, we come from different backgrounds. My life was never easy from my birth. I have a lot of spirits. If I don’t pray, I know I will be suicidal. No-one knows. My daily prayers are what keep me alive,” TNS told the publication.

When it comes to suicide and depression, he explained that he indeed has suicidal thoughts from time to time.

“It’s not like someone wakes up and thinks about this. My life was never easy. I  have suicidal thoughts. It’s not something that started now.”


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Abuse allegations

In 2021, TNS faced allegations of assaulting the mother of his child, Nothando Mbatha. In an Sunday World article the musician said the incident ended their relationship and admitted he had abused his lover and asked the country to help him fight his violent “demons”.


In his TshishaLive interview, the Ayabonga hitmaker went on to speak about the allegations against lies that have been spread about him which have also affected him.

In 2020, the singer took to Instagram Live to plead with fans to help him. During the video he claimed that there were people who were allegedly plotting to kill him. He further explained that there were Durban artists who were jealous of him because he was not born in the city.

“Apparently, there are things that I have and I am not supposed to have… This has been bothering me. I’m not competing with anyone and if someone is competing with me must come forward,” he said.

“There are so many, they even formed a group to see ukuthi this thing I cannot handle. I cannot fight. I can’t fight this fight because I’m alone,” he had said in the video.

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